It’s a struggle whenever I face changes in my life.
I feel a different kind of nervousness and uneasiness.
It’s too hard to not think about what will happen in the next few days.
I try to play a mobile game on my phone but still it doesn’t give me any calmness.
I also tried different skin care on my face to take care of myself and somehow ease my nervous self but it still doesn’t work.
I am too nervous because I will take a new position at work and it brings me into a deep hole of uncomfortable feelings.
I know I need this position to move up in the ranks in the next years to come but I still can’t welcome the changes as I am afraid of alot of things.
I am scared that I won’t perform well and that my improvement will be compared to the person who hold that position previously.
I need to stop comparing myself to my colleagues. I should start encouraging myself more instead.
I am currently writing this blog in the spot where I was most vulnerable years ago.
There’s a lot of things I need to work on in myself and hopefully I could figure myself out too.
I can feel the cold air blowing in my face and it definitely gives a soothing feeling. I thought music can calm me down but I found that sitting in this darkness while writing this blog gives me some comfort that I truly need right now.